…in a middle of a breakdown. I saw her from afar today at CCC and my body is slightly in shock, fear and a bunch of other mixed emotions. I told my little sister about it via text a few minute ago (probably not the best idea) and she’s probably worried now. I know I really shouldn’t have done it but seeing as she’s her actual little sister, it just felt right enough I guess.
What I’m so surprised about is how she still gets to me so quickly. It’s already more than over a year since we’ve been together and here I am breaking down at home and in need of a hug. Coming back to California is always nice but she’s the only reason why I’m ever afraid. Hell, I may or may not go of her one day but I don’t know which will come true. I need help, I know it, but there’s not much of anyone to turn to that I feel comfortable with. I’m so tired of the feeling… Please, just go away…
On a happier note, I saw a few other notable people today:
Mario - He changed a lot, like 180 degrees a lot.
Allison - Really liked her outfit :x
Janit - It’s been so long since I’ve seen her :o
Joaquin - Still the same chill guy as always.
My old teachers - Wonderful to see them ^^.